Raindrop

I dont like crying for whatever reason cos sometimes I just could not stop crying. The feeling is unexplainable whether I am lost, confused or sad. I guess sometimes I could not help being so emotional. I just dont wanna show my feeling to anyone. I want them to know I'm ok but I am not. My body has become so numb and my brain stopped working for a while. I just wish I could turn back times, bring back all the beautiful memories and freeze it there. In reality, I guess I would just have to let it go even though it would not be that easy. Yeah who said life is easy, it never had and never will.

Now the rain is falling down...outside my window... as if god knows how I feel inside.

My new love

I also found a new love. He's only one and a half month old hehe My sister and I bought him from Silom road a few nights ago. I still dont know what to name him. Various name suggestion has been received but I still could not decide. My sister called him "Pandy" as he looks a bit like a panda and eat like a pig hahaha I have been calling him "Baby" cos I didnt really know what to call. I had a very nice dream that I made out with Jesse Spencer a night before. So now I'm thinking maybe I should name him Jesse lol

Everyone keeps asking me the same question,

"Hey I thought you're moving to Netherlands, why did you buy a dog? Are you taking him with you as well?"

Oh no, I dont think so, no matter how much I want to take him there with me! Do you know how much do u have to pay to take your pet with you on the plane? My friend told me I would need to pay something like 100usd extra but I'm not sure. I think I'm gonna miss him so much when I move.

As for now, he's the only thing that keeps me entertain during the day. I cannot really leave him alone cos he gets to moan so loud if he doesnt see anyone around. I could only sneak out of my room when he's sleeping! I think everyone who has a puppy might experience the same thing, the biting habit. My dog is biting everything in front of him. He's biting my arms, my legs, my feets, my clothes (I'm wearing), my laptop charger, the electical wires, newspapers, my sandals etc. Incredible! We could not really sleep at night cos he usually sleeps during the day and are so awaken and very hyperactive at night. He normally comes to beg me to feed him at 1-2 am. Not sure if it's a bad habit but he's becoming a pig soon I think. I think you wanna see how cute he is now right? lol I took a vdo of him yesterday so enjoy. I hope you dont mind my ugly voice as found in the vdo lol



Have a good one xx